North Korean Christians

Why North Koreans Find It Hard to Trust God

For many believers, having faith in God as the ultimate Provider and leaning on Christ when life exceeds our strength is a natural posture of surrender. But for those escaping one of the world’s toughest regimes, trusting an unseen Provider requires unlearning a lifetime of conditioning. In a recent video, Kim Jong-un’s former bodyguard shared (credit to Youtube channel “The NK Guys”) a reflection on faith and survival that cuts to the very heart of the North Korean refugee experience:

“I do think there might be a God. I survived, while so many died when defecting. So maybe God helped. But, if I believed in Him and got hurt, it would be too painful. So now, I do think He exists, but I decided to believe in myself to help myself survive in this world. Everything else is bearable, but what bothers me is memories of my son, memories of my 80-year-old mother, I miss her, and because of that, this North-South division really hurts. It is equally hard living in this free world."


This honest admission reveals a deep spiritual paradox. Even when acknowledging God’s hand in his survival, he chooses fierce self-reliance over spiritual surrender, always keeping a cautious distance from full trust. Yet this guarded response is entirely understandable when viewed through the lens of North Korea’s state doctrine, Juche, which shapes every aspect of a citizen’s worldview (read more on North Korea dictatorship).

Juche: A State Religion of Self-Reliance

While framed as a political philosophy, Juche (literally translated as “self-reliance”), functions as North Korea’s official secular religion. In short, it teaches citizens that humanity is the master of its own destiny and that salvation comes not from a higher power, but through complete devotion to the state and reliance on oneself. However, Juche operates as a cruel contradiction in practice. The regime ruthlessly demands total compliance as a deity would, while leaving its people entirely on their own to survive (read more on North Koreans relying on families who have defected to survive).

The Reality of State Neglect

This systemic neglect is clearly visible in how Pyongyang manages domestic crises. When record heatwaves swept across the Korean peninsula earlier this month, North Korea’s Cabinet appeared to address the people’s needs by issuing emergency heatwave guidelines after deaths from heat-related illness surpassed 100 nationwide. In particular, the state dictated 20 strict measures demanding that managers prevent further casualties. Yet low-level officials reported that they were now faced with the impossible task of reducing workflow while maintaining heavy work quotas. Meanwhile, basic material and medical support, including salt or fever reducers, remained non-existent at actual work sites and grueling labor training camps.

Beyond releasing official prevention guidelines, state media simply encouraged citizens to beat the heat by consuming traditional dog meat soup and ginseng broths, offering empty propaganda in lieu of tangible relief. When a government demands absolute submission to its authority while providing zero real support, citizens internalize a harsh, scarring lesson: relying on an external power for help is dangerous, while putting your faith in yourself can increase the chance of survival.

From Self-Reliance to Grace

In our field ministries supporting North Korean refugees, this state-enforced Juche ideology becomes a major barrier for those under our care to experience God’s grace. At Elim House, we often witness North Korean women navigating life after escape still carrying heavy emotional armor. Take Bethany, a woman who struggled to navigate interpersonal conflicts and eventually had to transition out of Elim House. Her past trauma has left her quick to trust, but even quicker to feel attacked. At our retreat, a simple, offhand comment from her bunkmate sent her into an immediate spiral, demanding a room change. However, far from mere stubbornness or hostility, her reaction was likely a defensive instinct forged over decades under Juche. In a system where leaning on others feels like an invitation to harm, defensive reactivity becomes a necessary survival strategy.

In a recent interview, Christian North Korean refugee Charles Ryu opened up about the reality of North Korea’s brutal prison camp system. Detainees are stripped of their names, reduced to numbers and subjected to deliberate dehumanization designed to erase self-worth – a reality Charles experienced firsthand when he almost died of malnourishment working 18 hours a day in a labor camp on a daily food ration of just 150 kernels of corn. Those who survive inside are systematically forced into absolute self-preservation, where showing empathy or trusting a fellow prisoner can cost you your life. As Dan Chung further explains in his book A Hard Freedom: The Dreams and Trauma of North Korean Refugees, escaping to China offers no immediate sanctuary, as defectors only enter a second layer of trauma as illegal, stateless non-persons who can be betrayed and repatriated back to North Korea for a cash reward at any moment (read more on North Korean Defectors Sold Out for Profit in China). This relentless vulnerability continually reinforces the Juche worldview that no one, not even God, can be trusted.

But even this deeply ingrained armor can soften through Christ-centered community. We have experienced firsthand the profound psychological and spiritual shift that occurs when refugees finally encounter unconditional faith-based support. Charles’ own life also reflects this shift, moving from the survival mode of the prison camps to an active, outspoken faith. Where Juche and state oppression teach that self-reliance is the only defense against betrayal, we offer a safe community where North Korean refugees can lay down their armor. As we provide for their physical needs and walk alongside them toward emotional healing, we witness a beautiful transformation. Slowly, the heavy burden of self-preservation gives way to the lasting hope, peace, and abundant life found in the love of Jesus Christ.

Evidence of Peace After the Storm: Shelly’s Journey of Faith and Resilience

A few weeks ago, a quiet but profound reunion took place in a church sanctuary in South Korea. Two women, "Shelly" and "Barbara," crossed paths during a service. On the surface, it was a warm greeting between friends. For us at Crossing Borders, it was a powerful testament to the long-term impact of emotional and spiritual restoration.

Shelly, a former resident of our Elim House shelter, appeared noticeably healthier and more vibrant than when she first arrived years ago. Her story is a window into the complex hardships North Korean refugees face—and the incredible strength found when they discover their identity in Christ.

The Weight of Sacrifice: Life in North Korea

Shelly’s journey began with a level of sacrifice that is difficult to fathom. Coming from a high-ranking family in North Korea, she chose to marry a man whose social status was "tainted" because his family were South Korean prisoners of war (POW).

To protect her husband from the severe discrimination and labor camps often reserved for those with his background, Shelly’s father used his influence and resources to pay constant bribes. Through Shelly's family's support, her husband was not only protected but was eventually promoted to a leadership position. Shelly gave up her comfort and social standing to build a life for her family, a burden she carried through their eventual escape to South Korea.

The Pain of Betrayal and the Reality of Trauma

A North Korean refugee woman takes notes during a Sunday worship service.

While we celebrate stories of freedom, the reality of past and present trauma is difficult for most North Korean refugees to overcome. The transition to a new life often masks scars of the past. Despite Shelly’s immense sacrifices, her husband was repeatedly unfaithful—both in North Korea and after their arrival in South Korea.

The final breaking point came when Shelly sought stability for her future. When she asked her husband for financial assistance to secure a home, he refused to contribute even a cent. After decades of putting his needs above her own, Shelly was left with a deep sense of disillusionment.

Moving Beyond Bitterness

For a long time, Shelly’s prayers were dominated by the weight of this betrayal. She admits that she spent many days crying before God, her heart filled with anger and a desire for justice.

Today, the situation has shifted. Her ex-husband, now alone after being abandoned by a mistress, is struggling with significant health issues. While their daughter has encouraged a reconciliation, Shelly has found the strength to maintain firm boundaries. Her decision isn't born of malice, but of a newfound clarity. She is no longer defined by the chaos of her past or the actions of a man who did not value her.

A New Identity: Finding Rest in Christ

What we witnessed at that church reunion was a woman who has moved from "survival mode" to a life of true "rest." Shelly told us:

I now realize that God is truly alive and working in my life. Walking with Him is where I find my happiness.

Shelly has found a peace that isn't dependent on her circumstances. She now serves as a singer in her church’s mission choir, using her voice to honor the God who sustained her.

Becoming Salt and Light

One of the most moving parts of Shelly's update is her desire to give back. Despite her own modest means, she reached out to Crossing Borders expressing a desire to donate rice to Elim House. She wants to support the sisters who are currently standing where she once stood—exhausted, broken, and searching for hope.

In the North Korean refugee community, where trauma is often the common language, Shelly has become "salt and light." She is a living example that while we cannot always change the painful chapters of our past, we can walk into a new future anchored in a God who restores.

Stand With Our Sisters

Shelly’s story reminds us of God’s loving and steady hand of doing the long-term work of emotional healing and providing spiritual guidance.

Please join us in prayer for:

  • Shelly: For continued strength as she serves her church and navigates her new life.

  • Her Ex-Husband: For repentance and that he might find the same peace Shelly has discovered.

  • The Refugee Community: For the many others still caught in the cycle of trauma, that they would find their "mother’s home" and ultimate rest in Christ.